hey fellows ;D
i am back after such hiatus .
have been tweeting all this while instead of blogging since it's easier and more convenient .
well time pasts and for sure a lot of things happened .

to be honest , things have not been going well .
lots of things actually happen .
is somehow quite tired of this life .
was unable to do well in studies , conflicts with friends , financially strapped , lost my way and hope to my career dream and lots more .

i am sitting in the second year of SMA now , major in IPS .
feels a bit disappointed and sad since my main purpose is to get in IPA but was unable to do it .
since i was unable to get in IPA then gotta say bye bye to my engineering , have been thinking of alternatives and i guess i could only choose banking or finance ?
ya that's it , you reap what you sow .
somehow regretted for not being serious enough in studies during my first year :(
enough said , what's done can't be undone .
got no other choice so i should get down and be realistic about it , do well in my IPS course , who knows i'll find a new dream through this .
haha .
i hope i'll be able to get out of here soon , probably will leave in another few months time and actually that'll be really so awesome .
ya i must do better .

got some conflict with a close friend of mine recently , honestly i don't what really cause this conflict , it just happened so suddenly .
we have not been talking till now .
how did it happened ? i don't know
why ? i also don't know
i don't think i have done anything wrong ,everything was going like usual that day , you just don't talk to me out of sudden and like put all blame on me .
like seriously i feel so indignant and innocent , just what i have did ?
but i didn't give up on this , i actually asked you twice about what really happened but you just ignored me , so i was like okay forget about it then and so cold war just happen .
i really don't know what should i do , so i just stay still and do nothing about it because i know that whatever i do , i am still wrong in your opinion .
i have done my best and the rest is uptoyou .
but please don't ever like put the blame on me , don't twist the fact , don't say until like i'm the one who ended this .
this is all i gotta say .
I STILL TREAT YOU AS MY BEST FRIEND and it never changed about how i feel to you ; you should actually know this because i have told you before in our sg trip
but what about you ? i don't understand .
i trust what you said to me but i found out that you are not telling the truth sometimes maybe because you don't trust me ; this is your right , i have nothing to talk about .
and you don't hold on your promise , you promised me if you feel unhappy towards me , u will tell me and we'll sort it out but you never did it .
so i began to not hope and expect too much because that too much also hurts too much .
i really hope someday you will read and realize these best friend . :)
if i have done something wrong to you which i don't even realize , i apologize for it genuinely .
after this happening , i have realized there are many more awesome people around me , I want to thank all of you for all these time , you guys should know who you are ;D

financially , i really feel so broke , i worked during the vacation and earn some money but it just like disappear and don't know die where ah , lol .
i must really save now , money is really hard to find .

life is surely tough but i must be tougher .
i have been strong for so long , this is not going to defeat me .
the more setbacks happen to me , the stronger i will get .
i will strive hard , work hard and someday i'll be having a great life .

there are really much more things i would like to blog , but these can't be expressed by words .
so gotta go , have a great day peeps ;D

P.S. I don't talk crap , i meant what i say so don't take my words as bullshits , it is all so true .