i am collapsing anytime .
yes i've been strong , and i think i should be able to be even stronger .
but the fact is i'm a bit tired .
tired of everything .
life's been a torture .
nothing goes right , too much ordeals to be handled .
i'm just a human not a robot .
i also feel exhausted .
sometimes i feel myself so pathetic .
life is like making fun of me thoroughly .
i never can enjoy my life .
one problem starts before another ends .
too much for me , i'm 16th and i've almost experienced all the heart-wrenching things that could actually happened .
sometimes i think it would be better for me to just disappear from this world for goods .
i have tried to be optimist , but still nothing goes right and this just make me feel that there's no hope at all .
i am really mentally depressed .