Have been feeling troubled lately. Mixed up feelings, shifting moods and random thoughts fill my days. Feeling so insecure, I feel like something is bound to happen. Something that will affect the surrounding with great changes. I don't know why but I've been feeling like this. Something which once means so much, feels so empty right now. I don't know what should I do, it just seems so meaningless.
All I need now is a new environment. I really hope that I'll be able to get out of here. Letting go of everything here and leave with a smile on my face. New environment, new life, new people, new things would really be so great. I am not sure if I'll regret on this but by this moment I am sure that I really want it. There's nothing much that are worth for me to stay except my dearest family and some people who really love, cherish and appreciate me.

These few days, I've been racking my brain for what to post. I swear it's really so difficult to find a topic but something came into my mind yesterday. I'm going to blog about my friends. I'll be posting about my thoughts,feelings and things about them. In order to avoid conflicts, I'll be not using their name. I'll just use special codes. Let's see if you guys are able to guess who are them.

Firstly, let me start with AE, I knew AE since we were in primary grade but we are in close terms only starting from 7th year. Honestly, that time I don't like AE so much. AE was an unreasonable person and AE gives out a very arrogant aura. But as time goes by, I realized that AE is just another person who needs love,care and supports. AE is weak emotionally. AE is very polite and afraid to cause conflicts.
Next, it is BH. I knew this person since I'm in my early primary year. We were close friends that time. After I moved from there, we literally lost contact. We did meet up again when I'm in 7th year but we're almost like strangers. Fate really plays a big part , we met again in the upcoming years. Though now we are not as close as before, but still I'm happy that we are still able to be friends for such a long time.
EC, a nice person. Sweet and sexy describes EC best. Knows how to save and think. Being practical is EC's best characteristic. Though EC is fierce at times but EC is kind in heart.
FE, someone I started to know only at the time when I'm 7th grader. We started as gangs during that time but something happened and we fought. For almost 1 and a ½ year, I act like a stranger to FE. Things get to better only in the 9th year. We did some talks though still there's a bit feeling of dislike. As time goes by , we became closer and really CLOSE. In the 10th year, we became like doughsticks. We always stick to each other. Though we are in good terms but we quarrel frequently but still I really treat FE as a very important friend. I really hope that our friendship will last long.
FJ, a cute being, fragile in heart, all what FJ needs is love and care. FJ is still a child, whether physically or emotionally.
GH, someone who I get to be close recently. First impression: shy and quiet. After you know GH well, GH can be such a crazy person. GH totally turned into a different person. GH is a nice and kind person. I love talking to GH.
KA is a great friend of mine. We are in close terms starting 7th year. I still remembered during the 4th year, KA was the first or second person who talked to me. KA gave me an impression that is friendly. KA is a humorous and optimistic person. Though now we apart, but our heart still connects. I miss KA.
NA, a good friend, a devoted Christian. NA sets a good example to NA's surroundings. NA dislikes lies so much. I can see that NA always has been trying to be a good and useful person to society. I know NA is a person who is easily satisfied. NA's simplest wish is to have a home.
OL is a lucky person. Born in a harmonic family, having a smart brain and kind in heart. OL doesn't complain, OL is always satisfied with what OL have. OL is innocent and cute. Though at times, OL is very annoying and noisy but OL is really a good friend.
PK, a cute and funny person. Though different races but PK is the nicest person of PK's race. PK is the first of PK's race that I get so close with. PK knows how to amuse and annoys people.
QD, I started to be close with QD during 8th year. QD is a very kind and easy-going person. Biggest flaw of QD is too easy-going and it makes QD looks like a person without principles. QD is a nice person, always trying to help people around QD.
RE, a person you will fear when you don't know RE at first. Actually, RE is a kind and nice person. RE loves family and will always help friends in need.
TL, someone who I just get to know better recently. TL is really a nice person. TL is friendly, humorous and kind. TL is intelligent and excel well in studies. TL makes a good friend.
UB, someone who has many similarities with me. UB is petite; cute and pretty. UB gives out a feeling that make every man wants to protect. UB is 我的另外一半. UB shares a lot of same traits with me. It makes us look like siblings.
UC, someone who was in close terms with me during 8th year. Drifted apart for some quite moment and we get back close during 2011. UC is a lonesome person. All UC asks for is a true friend and a true love. UC is a serious person in studies. UC believes that TRUST is an important essence in life. I believe that UC makes a great friend and worthy for having a true friend.
VI, an awesome friend. VI is mature, VI knows how to think. VI is mysterious. VI has many thoughts but always remain silent. VI doesn't open up to everybody. VI always keeps things inside, this one point resembles me a lot. VI is someone that you'll never want to lose. It has been quite a time since I meet VI, I really miss VI. There was once a time during our 7th year, I didn't talk to VI for quite a time over a trivial matter but luckily we patch up. It'll be such a loss for me if I lose VI.
WK, quiet and shy when you know WK initially. You will see WK true self when you know WK better. WK is talkative and annoying but cute. WK is pretty,kind and well-mannered.
YB, a pessimistic person. YB always thinks to the negative inside. Deeply inside, all YB asks for is happiness. YB loves family,lovers and friends so much. YB always yearn for a true love and true friend. YB is mature. YB knows how to resolve a situation and YB always do the best to lift up people's mood.
YD, a person who is kind-hearted and innocent. YD rarely gets angry. YD loves friends , family and lovers so much. I still remember that YD told me that YD always has some weird encounters and I told YD to never be alone whenever YD goes. I pray and hope that YD will always be fine.
YF, a devoted Buddhist, a person with shocking family background but YF is a optimistic and cheerful person. YF can almost be classified into a hyper-active. YF never can stop being crazy. When YF is in mood, YF will act like a crazy person and jumps around but at the same YF can be such an emotional person.


This is some of my friends. I'm really sorry if I missed out some. Let's see whether you guys will be able to guess it.