Yes, I'm FRUSTRATED 

Right now, I'm in such a dilemma and it really bothers me. This time, the issue that bothered me is actually regarding education. As I had stated in my previous post, my future seems so hollow and without motivation. Here, I'm still hesitating for my further education. I don't know which route should I take. Personally, I would like to continue my education overseas but due to many reasons and considerations, the most probably option is either to continue at Singapore or here in Batam. Seeing from this situation, it's obvious that I'll choose to continue at Singapore. One of the few reasons why Singapore is because Singapore is near to Batam, all it takes at most is just an hour ferry time to reach. Furthermore, education quality is Singapore is determined to be one of the best. Look at NUS, it's one of the best universities in Asia, even the whole world, it's recognized. So I settled my choice to continue in Singapore. But things don't seem to be as simple as that, more problems come. My parents are insisting me to get into a government based university due to reasons that government school is better, well this is undeniable. I personally also want to get in NUS if my results would compromise. Hahaha. But it seems to be so much impossible to get in university in Singapore, so, my parents are encouraging me to get into polytechnics, because it is government based and its education quality is better. You know old folks, they heard a lot of things like studying in private school is not good, government school is better and so on and so forth. Actually, I don't hate the thoughts of getting into polytechnics because once I used to wish to get into polytechnics. But the problem right now is that I'd spend so much time if I get in to polytechnics, I'd only be graduating at 22 years old holding only a diploma. Imagine how much time I'm going to waste, while getting into a private university, I'll hold a bachelor degree on my 21st. Too much time are sacrificed. So that's the thing that really bothers. I even considered to stay at Batam if that's the way, because if I continued my studies at Batam, I'll graduate also on my 22nd holding a bachelor degree. But still, Batam's education can't be compared to Singapore's and I also don't wish to stay here. I'd like to go overseas and try living on my own, well at least a new environment. I've thought a lot about these problems and it really makes me go so vexed. Too many factors that I need to consider. Financially, I need to set a budget in which it is affordable and worthwhile. Quality, I need to choose school with a determined qualification and standard. Environmentally, I need to choose places that I'm comfortable with. So it is really such a bother to think about all of this but oh well what can we do without education in this era.  Now, I am trying to at least study harder and see if I can apply into NUS,NTU or SMU, though I know it's really almost impossible. Hahaha. If really I can't get in to those 3 universities maybe I'd really consider about polytechnics, well for the sake of better qualification so I must sacrificed time. Let's hope for the best now!