(29/11/2014)

It was raining heavily that day when I had work, and I went to grab some food before leaving to my workplace. I sat by the place where I was eating and looked at the rain, waiting for it to subside so that I could walk to the bus stop. The hand of the clock keeps on ticking, soon the rain subsided. So, I decided to walk to bus stop at that moment. As I was walking through the small route that brings me to the bus stop, I feel really peaceful. The smooth breeze after the rain blows towards my face, and the vibe was just right. How I wish the time could stop at that moment, and let me have some time to embrace and enjoy our mother nature. Not long after, I boarded on the bus and reached the MRT station. I took the train to another part of the city. Along the journey, I was not seated, I am just standing with my earpiece plugged in my ears. The rain just got harder and harder as I passed one and another station along my way. And I somehow realized, I have a great affection towards rain. Whenever it rains, I will get all excited to be drowned in my melancholy mood. But oddly, instead of feeling sad or depressed, I felt happy and peaceful. I guess it's just me and my weird personality.

4/12/2014

Had my Financial Accounting UT today, it was quite manageable for me. The only downside is that the paper was quite confusing and made a lot of people to be unable to do it well. I guess the reason is because we were not familiarized enough to do accounting on a computer, hence leading to confusion to most of the people. I will be having another UT tomorrow for my Project Management and Scheduling module. And, I dread it so much. I really don't dare to even imagine what will happen tomorrow. Throughout my journey in poly, this is one of the module that I really had no understanding towards it. I don't know what I have been doing for the past 7 weeks for this module. I am having so much doubts now, whether events is really the right path for me. I really regretted that I didn't appeal back then to get into my first choice. Even though, it seems to be futile to appeal as I am an international student which have lower chance or even not applicable to appeal, but still I should had taken a shot. Well, the past is the past, no point to regret and fret over it now. I just hope that it will get better over the time and let me regain my motivation and confidence to finish this academic journey. I can't take the risk to play with my poly life, it is like life and death situation to me. I can't just let my parent's expectations and efforts to go down in vain. May the paper be on our favor tomorrow, please. Gonna hit the sack now. Good night and Good Luck!