A lot of things have happened for these past three months. Even I, myself,  is also amazed by these incidents. I don't know what struck me that leads to the occurrence. I am confused, yes indeed drowning in my own thoughts. I told myself that I should not but I guess my words are useless. It doesn't seem to conquer the battle. Now, things get even more complicated. I let it start due to my impatience and negligence. I don't even know what will unfold in the future, or how to clean this mess up. I feel like I have been on a roller coaster ride these few days. Always trying to reassure and pacify myself, but my mind just seem to be out of control. It will constantly jump through the wall and go outside of the box, It took me so hard every time to contain it back. Positivity and objectivity are what I need now. Blame it on who, I am not sure, maybe on the universe. 

Sometimes, I wonder why do I give in so much. Why do I need to keep things to myself? Why can't I stand up and convey what I really want to? Why do I need to restrict myself from certain things? Why do I have to sacrifice my happiness? Why do I make myself to be at the losing end? Why? I don't know. I guess it's just me and myself.. Being afraid of rejection, being afraid of losing. I am such a coward.
Perhaps, time is all I needed. Time to stand up. Time to grow up. Time to voice out. Time to let go. Just time.

Sometimes, ignorance is bliss, silence is gold, and some things are better left untold..